Hi Baby, sitting here on my own just thinking about you, it is your birthday next Friday and the dread is starting to set in, Not that it makes any difference to how much I miss you but it does bring home to me how unfair life is and how much you have missed out on. Cant believe it will be 20yrs this August since you left, some days it feels like yesterday, I was supposed to be going to Germany this year to lay flowers at the scene of the crash but I don't know if I want to, I am so scared of the reaction I may have, so if I don't go I am so sorry I always said I would go one day but now the opportunity is here I am just too scared. love and miss you so much son, Mum xxxxxxx