Hi Son, so sorry I have not been on here for so long but things have really been getting on top of me, the way I was feeling, coming on here would possibly have sent me over the edge, I have found it so hard to find a reason for staying in this world, apart from the kids there does not seem much point in life. The doctor has taken me of my medication for my MS as it causes depression and suicidal thoughts but I really do not think stopping the pills will change how I am feeling, I know I should be grateful that I have the family but they have their own lifes to lead and sometimes my life is so lonely stuck in this house 7 days a week drives me mad, it gives me too much time to think and dwell on things, I know you would hate it if I done anything silly, but sometimes it seems like the lesser of two evils as this life is just a constant struggle, but as usual I will keep on and hopefully one day life may become a bit easier. Sorry JP all I seem to do is moan to you but the others just don't understand they think I should content myself, but I can't I just feel so useless I even struggle with everyday housework and as you know I was always so active before this bloody illness. Anyway I will go for now, and stop putting all my woes on your shoulders. You take care baby, and give my love to everyone, Love and miss you loads, MUM xxxxxxx