Well Son, tomorrow is Mothers Day another day that I don't look forward to anymore, instead of you sending me a card I went and put flowers on your grave today, something just not right about that,no mother should ever have to stand at her childs grave, after going to the cemetary I then went to that hospital your Nan is locked up in to take her her mothers day flowers and card, that was an ordeal she was really agitated today and was quite weepy, usually she doesn't know us or speak to anyone but today she asked me to take her home, how bad did that make me feel? so between going to the cemetary then to the hospital it has been a really shit day. Hope everything is ok with you and the boys, there is quite a gang of you there now, which is so sad you should all still be here enjoying your life, just wish you were bring my card tomorrow, what I would give to have that happen. Missing you so much Son, loads of love Mum xx