Hi Son, you must think I have forgotten you as it is so long since I wrote anything to you, but I can promise you it is the complete opposite, I am just finding it really hard to find the words to say, even on the community I just can't bring myself to write anything, what am I supposed to say to these people who are grieving that will help them, when I cannot help myself, how can I tell them it gets easier, when I am finding it more difficult as the years go by, the longer it is and maybe the older I get it just gets sadder and sadder,or maybe because I have more time on my hands now that both the kids are at school and I really wonder what is the point, sitting here on my own day after day, probably just feeling sorry for myself, Miss you Son, MUM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx