last few weeks have been a bit rough but hopefully things are getting a bit better, just waiting for test results coming back, getting closer to the wedding and things are starting to step up a gear, it's a nightmare trying to get my outfit sorted as I have been stuck in the house and can't trail round the shops so I am absolutely fed up scouring the internet, anyway another 10 wks and it will all be by with and things might get back to some kind of "normal" they are not going on honeymoon straight away but are going away in July, so that should be a quiet time for me, will need it, got to cope with your 40th birthday before that and I am dreading it, feel like I should be throwing you a party or something but instead it will be flowers on your grave, it's just not fair. Hope you have a Happy Easter JP. Missing you so much, love MUM xxxx