You are so lucky that you held a perfect angel, your story is very simuliar to mine, i was married for 12yrs to a voilent acholic my little girl and i packed our bags some nine years ago, as i walked out with only my three year old in my arms i wonderd how i would ever survive, life has gone by so fast, and unfortunilty my childs father thought the boze was the best thing in life and passed away in June of this year, his answere to life was he had nothing to live for my answere was i look at my child and know each day is worth living for, i thank every day she is alive and pray i will never have the heart break you must have had loosing such a lovery child, my thought are with you every day and more so over christmas, just sent out christmas cards from HELP FOR HEROES.ORG.UK, Money helps army personell who have been hurt in conflict ( My Brother is in the royal Marines ) Any way enought from me, your story has inspired me,m you are so brave x