Well JP you probably know already that Sizer died tonight, I know how hard that will be for you if you have to come face to face with him, but maybe all the anger and bitterness we have carried all these years because of what he done to us can now be laid to rest. I must admit i was a little stunned when Arlene phoned to tell me, but maybe in a way that is to be expected,he was a significant part of my life and the father of 2 of my kids, Arlene is being her usual self couldn't care less, Christian on the other hand is really upset, even though he can't understand why after everything his father done but i suppose it is the finality of it, he won't have another chance to have the relationship with him that he has probably hoped for most of his life. Anyway I know how much what he done affected you all your life, if you have to face him maybe as part of his life review or his judgement please remember it was his wrong doing not yours, you done nothing wrong, even though he made you feel like it was your own fault, you were just a little boy and that man ruined your childhood, so you be strong and don't feel intimidated by him, you are the better person and don't ever forget that. Love you son, Mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx