Hi son, I am so sorry I have not been on here for a while but with everything that has been going on and feeling a bit crap at the moment, with all the carry on with these builders I am fed up constantly having to chase them up, but hopefully another week should see them finished then It will be sweet revenge when they ask for their money, cause they will wait till it suits me just like they have done everything to suit them up till now but mother will have the last laugh, lol. and then there is these doctors and hospitals I am really sick looking at them at the moment ,I feel as if I am never away from them, now the physio thinks I should be wearing a splint on my left foot to help with my walking he says I have "drop foot" it is where the messages from the brain are not getting to it because of damage in that nerve, but I really don't want to start on that path I think once you start with aids it tends to escalate from there. JP please don't think when I have not been on here for a while that it is because I don't care or that I am not thinking about you, you mean more to me than life itself and you are in my thoughts always, I miss you so much and sometimes you are so much at the forefront of my mind that I can't concentrate on anything else, which really gets on some peoples nerves because they are talking and I am not listening but I really can't be bothered with the shit they talk , one person in particular and you will know who I mean, it is the same crap that comes from their mouth every time I see them, if it wasn't for the fact that I don't want to hurt them I would really explode and say something I would probably feel bad about later. I just wanted to come on tonight and let you how much I love and miss you and to tell you how sad my life is without you here. Miss you son, All my Love MUM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx