Well JP, its mothers day again, that makes the 15th since I had a card from you I know you will find some other way to let me know you are there but it just isn't the same, I really appreciate all the little signs you send me and some times the not so little,lol. Thanks for the penny by the way, that really blew my mind, and Kathy was so grateful for what you done to help Alex, but you could have been a bit more subtle with the TV, I nearly had a heart attack lol. I know JP that when you were here your life wasn't always the easiest and sometimes you got the rough end of the stick, and I know you were made to feel unwanted and unimportant by certain people, but I hope you always knew how much I loved you I tried so hard to shield you from hurt and sometimes I failed and I am so sorry for that, I just want you to know how much you have done to help so many people and how grateful these people are to you and how proud I am that I am your mum, you are a very special person and what you do to help people who are devastated after losing their kids is amazing. Well son the builders still aren't finished and it is driving me crazy I am on the verge of exploding but I have told them no more money till it is finished, so the ball is in their court now, they have got till the end of this week then I will get someone else in to finish it, and they can whistle for their money. don't suppose you could boot them up the backside for me, lol. Going to bed now son I will be thinking about you especially today, you should be here bringing me my card, or maybe taking me out for my dinner, what I wouldn't do to have that happen, feeling a bit sorry for myself, I just miss you so much, Love you so much son, MUM xxxxx