Hi Son, well another birthday thats 16 since you left and they just don't get any easier, I don't know what is the hardest the endless tears or the way it is at the moment just feeling numb I think I have got to the stage where there has been so much pain in my life that it has become a natural thing for me. I never stop thinking about you but I think I am all cried out, went to the cemetary today with your present and flowers, I was leaning over washing the headstone and the next thing I knew I was falling I put my hand out to save myself but it was to late, I cracked my head of the ledge on the stone and hit my ribs on the small stone at the front, what a bloody idiot glad there was no one around to see me lol. but I really hurt my head thought it was split at first but luckily it was just grazed, don't know what happened whether it was the heat or whether I just lost my balance, god knows anyway I am ok just got a headache now. Have a great birthday Son hope you and your mates are having a ball on the other side. Miss you baby, Happy Birthday, Loads of love, Mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx