Hi Son, sorry i haven't written to you in a while, didn't realise how long it has been till I logged on tonight and seen the date of the last visit, you know that even if I am not on here it is not that I don't care or that I am not thinking about you because you know you are my first and last thought of every day, I am just in such a mess at the moment, both physically and emotionally, I just feel so alone at the minute the other three behave like I am just an inconvenience in their life, all the trouble with the house and none of them has lifted a hand to help sort it out, so I have given up asking them and have decided to get someone else in to finish all the jobs I can't manage on my own. Anyway son I really don't have much to chat about all I seem to do is moan and complain and you are always the one who has to listen to it all,so i will go and stop bursting your bum lol. I just wish I was able to do it face to face and not just in my mind, I miss you so much JP and just wish I was there with you because I really don't like my life here and probably would be easier all round if I wasn't here, but that is something I am not in control of, obviously my job here isn't finished or the lesson I am supposed to learn haven't been learned yet, hopefully that day is in the not to distant future, Miss you so much son, loads of love MUM xxxxxxxxxx