Well Christmas was over and now we had to face New Year, it was going to be hard 2 of the boys from JPs regiment were coming to stay, part of me was happy they were coming but a bigger part of me was dreading it, the only time I had met these boys was at JPs funeral they said at the time they would come and visit but I never thought they would, but true to their word they arrived on the morning of the 30th Dec. there names were Nick and Denzil they were really nice lads, Nick reminded me so much of JP he just melted my heart as for Denzil I recognised him right away he was the soldier that had to be held up in the church he was absolutely distraught, I remember hearing someone crying at the funeral service and when I turned round to see who it was it was Denzil, I remember just wanting to go and hug him but my legs just wouldn't move, it was heartbreaking here was this young soldier in full dress uniform crying uncontrollably. As I said they arrived on the 30th and made themselves at home there was nothing awkward or strained they just fitted right in. they went into town and I made dinner for them when they came back and then we spent the rest of the night chatting. That was when the first mention of JP not dying instantly was first brought up, I had always been told that he was pronounced dead at the scene and even the transcript from the coroners court said he died at 4am. but according to Nick and Denzil when they were told that morning about the accident at around 6am they were told that the other 2 boys had been killed but that JP was on life support at Rinthelm military hospital, as you can imagine I was in total shock but the more I thought about it the more it started to make sense, the delay in informing us, it took them over 14hrs to notify us, the carry on when his body came home about whether or not his organs had been used, the post mortem report did not mention what he was wearing, and yet the report on the other boys listed every item of clothing they had on, but there was nothing I could do it was New Years Eve but I was damn sure I would be the first person on their phone as soon as their office opened after the holidays, not that there was a chance that the army would own up to anything.New years eve the boys went to a Hogmanay party at prestwick airport with Arlene her boyfriend and all their mates,there was a new year rave being held there. I was worried sick till they got back in the early hours of the morning but that is just me worry about everything, when they all finally surfaced that day we had something to eat and all headed to the cemetary, it was very hard and the boys were very emotional,they took some photos of the grave to take back to the rest of the boys in the regiment then we went back home. I had arranged for all JPs friends and family to come to my house that evening to meet the boys so the rest of the day was in spent in the kitchen preparing food, everone arrived about 6pm and we had a really nice evening, we laughed a lot and cried a lot, exchanging stories of JP,the next day we all had a lazy day as we were all shattered, then in the evening the young ones all went into town me I went to bed exhausted. the boys were supposed to leave on the 3rd but had decided to stay till the 5th, they were having a blast,but I was back at work on the 3rd so the young ones were left to look after them but they were having a great time, JP would have been so pleased. The morning of the 5th was awful it was floods of tears all round from the boys and me, it was like another part of JP going away but they promised to keep in touch and said they would be back at easter leave if that was ok with me but again I thought they were just saying it to make me feel better but true to their word they phoned me at least once a week and assured me they would be back. Once the boys were gone I contacted the MOD about what the boys had told me but just as I expected they denied everything, when I asked them about JP being a donor they were a bit hesitant with their answers but the said he wasn't, but that if he had been they would not have needed my consent as he carried a donor card I told them that the next of kin still had to be asked but they informed me,not when he was a serving soldier. "You learn something new every day" but I do believe he was used as a donor and nothing they say will convince me any different